Hurting Inside

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I am still recuperating from the hurt that I feel inside when the day I raised my voice to my niece because of her misdeeds which I really felt that it is not appropriate for her to act that way. Of course as an Uncle I really felt obliged to reprimand my nephews and niece's wrongdoings. Before I forget I advised you to read my previous post titled Over Protective so that you will have a better understanding of my story.

Today when she went home I really sensed that she was avoiding me and I do really understand why because it was really quite obvious that she was still mad at me and that really hurts since, I was used to received a nice greeting from her and I really don't like the feeling that I have mis-understanding with anybody special within my family circle. That fact that we were living in the same house or area and will probably met each other very often but pretend that we don't know each other or act as if one of us doesn't exist, quite funny but it's true. What an awkward feeling that someone special and close to you but you cannot hug or even greet anymore because of this stupid mis-understanding and I do admit because of my pride also. For the moment I just have to bear the hurt that I feel inside than give  or surrender in to her at this point and say okay I give you win. Because I want her to realize that I really mean what I say and I don't want her to do the same mistake or action which is very inappropriate for her as a fine young lady that I want her to become.

I really don't want to be mean to her or to anybody of my nieces or nephew and I just want them to realize that I do reprimand them for their misdeeds because it is only for their own good and because I love them. I am not saying that I am perfect and that I don't make any mistakes or stupid things during my teenage days but because of the fact that I was there before and I know how it is like to be a teenager and that is the reason I am very protective of them so that they won't commit the same mistakes that I did on my younger days. Hopefully one of this days I will find the guts or courage to talk to my niece about this issue and explain to her why I don't want her to do that or act that way again and for the moment I just have to endure the hurt that I fell deep within.